Amid the economic problems going around the world, my world is going down under as well...
I am more and more tired than ever... really am... i can't help emphasis on it again and again and again and again........... somebody understand me, help me... i need a wake up call... haizzz....

I really think I am haunted by my past and I have gone to the stage where I am devoid of emotions and I have lost the human touch with the world... I dont feel anything anymore, be it happy or sad, I dont feel any and I dont share any.. I am just an aimless soul living for no reason.. I have no career, no money, no life.. So meaningless... I dont where I am, dont know where I wanna go.. It is just a big "dont know"! Can someone give me a lift? Show me the way I should I cos I dont know where I am.. Really tired of life.. Really tired..
Anyway I am on leave today 1/2 day and tml.. A breakaway from work.. And tml I am having my driving test.. No emotion also, think I will fail so I cannot be bothered, just feel wasting my money cos recently low on cash , all throw into shares..
Tml going ikea to get furniture for my room, maybe a side table, anyone wanna join me? Haha

Back blogging, back boring... LOL... I looking for a new job... i wan a product control role but no one want me... LOL...

Anyway i getting new furnitures for my room, trying to make it more comfy than ever, just manage to install my TV anteena socket that allow me to view tv like the ones i get for my living room... planning to subscribe scv as well.. but then dun know will get the chance to watch anot... very scare i waste money leh... haha...

Got a new bed coming in this saturday as well with new frame and stuff... bought at a cheap of 780 nia come with super single mattress from four star brand, divan with head board , pillow, bolster and mattress protector as free gift... not too bad for 780... wahaha... quite looking forward... together with my ikea open concept wardrobe that i bought frm thomas bro, not too bad... hee.. only thing was that i did not re-paint the room, which i will not be able to due to the wardrobe... but well.. accept it liao...

Now after the bed, planning to install shut out curtains, and get a mirror and dressing area in the room to complete everything and maybe a shoe rack... exciting weeks ahead...

And the shares that i bought as well are shaking like dun know what sia... can only hold now... haha... sianz...

Today is my company annual party amid the global financial meltdown.. As most banks are cancelling their party due to budget, we continue and it was just boring .. it was held at Siloso beach in sentosa on a Friday as compared to last yr zouk on Thursday.. But it was jus boring, no dance, terrible waiting time for drinks, too little pple with too big of a venue.. And a bore indeed.. Nvm all that , talking with colleagues seem to take more centre stage then all the singing from the bands.. Especially when I met cedric, the man who taught me everything I knew from the start.. I dont know why but when I see him I will think I should not be heck care in my work and teach my team mates the best I know right now instead of being heck care , just like how cedric taught me.. But I am losing all my motivation now in work.. Tired tired..