Today is the eve of christmas eve... and this year will be the most different year since a long long time. This year i will actually not be celebrating Christmas eve and i will have no gf to pei me over it. Yes, that is right. Me and my gf broke off liao... I am actually quite sad and unhappy about it but there is no one to blame more so than myself.

So i guess i have to suffer for it now. It is not say it is a torture, but it just changes life completely and it bring me new perspective about my life. I really need sort out myself and my thinking and my life...

And so All i want for Christmas , is to be a better MAn....

MAy all have the best of Christmas and have a wonderful New Year

Today i am actually on leave... rotting at home right now... i am also wondering why i took leave when i dont even have plans to do anything... just intend to rot it away.

Anyway i badly needed this break cos i feel so sick about my job... feels so sian when i get into office... to the extend that i decide to take leave to escape away from it.

Oh well.. rot rot and rot away...

This has been quite a turbulent week, if you belong in the banking sector, or do read the news... my company is cutting 5,300 jobs... And i think my job is one of them... Wahaha... As mentioned before, i have been looking around for a new job so i guess asking me to go is better choice however give the current economy, it honestly is not the best time to find a job.. my god! But i guess i dont have too much of a choice, u got to go means u got to go...

Well... as i was saying to my colleagues, we enjoy the peak of the financial sector and so now is time we suffer for it... we had the time that we were earning ridiculous money when everyone had to work for it now. So now is our technical recession, naturally we are the first to go. So as the saying goes "What goes around, comes around" Oh well... who cares... Some think retrenchment, i think opportunity... Sounds like i am consoling myself wahaha...

Enough of the bad news, now some good news... i cleared my CPA paper liao... yeah!! Just login to see the result, i got a distinction for regulatory and reporting, not too bad considering i have not studied for a year or so and i spend 3 days or so for this paper... i personally am quite impressed with myself... wahaha... maybe i am really meant for accounting line... haha..

Anyway, now for another bad news, i am going ganna reservist... 06 May 2009, sian... dont even know my new employee will let me go or not... haha... so that might hinder me in finding a new job... big problem there... oh bothered...

Seem like alot of things is pretty against me lately... sian sian sian...

Some photos from November

15 November 2008 - Grace Wedding, the most beautiful and meaning wedding i have ever attend.

Beautiful Smile...

Everyone with Beautiful Grace


Me and WanQing and also Kathleen.. Wahaha


Me, Fyeap, Qyap, and LM

22 November 2008 - BBQ at Li tsan place with my team


Celebrating early, buddy tchew's bdae


TEam Toast, let hope we another chance for that in the coming months..


Team Photo.

Amid the economic problems going around the world, my world is going down under as well...
I am more and more tired than ever... really am... i can't help emphasis on it again and again and again and again........... somebody understand me, help me... i need a wake up call... haizzz....

I really think I am haunted by my past and I have gone to the stage where I am devoid of emotions and I have lost the human touch with the world... I dont feel anything anymore, be it happy or sad, I dont feel any and I dont share any.. I am just an aimless soul living for no reason.. I have no career, no money, no life.. So meaningless... I dont where I am, dont know where I wanna go.. It is just a big "dont know"! Can someone give me a lift? Show me the way I should I cos I dont know where I am.. Really tired of life.. Really tired..
Anyway I am on leave today 1/2 day and tml.. A breakaway from work.. And tml I am having my driving test.. No emotion also, think I will fail so I cannot be bothered, just feel wasting my money cos recently low on cash , all throw into shares..
Tml going ikea to get furniture for my room, maybe a side table, anyone wanna join me? Haha

Back blogging, back boring... LOL... I looking for a new job... i wan a product control role but no one want me... LOL...

Anyway i getting new furnitures for my room, trying to make it more comfy than ever, just manage to install my TV anteena socket that allow me to view tv like the ones i get for my living room... planning to subscribe scv as well.. but then dun know will get the chance to watch anot... very scare i waste money leh... haha...

Got a new bed coming in this saturday as well with new frame and stuff... bought at a cheap of 780 nia come with super single mattress from four star brand, divan with head board , pillow, bolster and mattress protector as free gift... not too bad for 780... wahaha... quite looking forward... together with my ikea open concept wardrobe that i bought frm thomas bro, not too bad... hee.. only thing was that i did not re-paint the room, which i will not be able to due to the wardrobe... but well.. accept it liao...

Now after the bed, planning to install shut out curtains, and get a mirror and dressing area in the room to complete everything and maybe a shoe rack... exciting weeks ahead...

And the shares that i bought as well are shaking like dun know what sia... can only hold now... haha... sianz...

Today is my company annual party amid the global financial meltdown.. As most banks are cancelling their party due to budget, we continue and it was just boring .. it was held at Siloso beach in sentosa on a Friday as compared to last yr zouk on Thursday.. But it was jus boring, no dance, terrible waiting time for drinks, too little pple with too big of a venue.. And a bore indeed.. Nvm all that , talking with colleagues seem to take more centre stage then all the singing from the bands.. Especially when I met cedric, the man who taught me everything I knew from the start.. I dont know why but when I see him I will think I should not be heck care in my work and teach my team mates the best I know right now instead of being heck care , just like how cedric taught me.. But I am losing all my motivation now in work.. Tired tired..

I am back... exam is over last thursday! yippie... it was not that easy, considering, did i not say that the exam was open book! Any material can bring in... but then... 60 MCQs and 2 case study in 3 hours... it was pretty tight... i did not really have time to give all the answer but i think i did ok.. and fingers crossed, everything goes well!

Anyway this weekend has been quite fufilling, went to watch high school musical 3 on friday nite and ytd i went on a shopping spree... bought a shirt from ben sherman... damn cool la, super slim fit... LOL...

Tml is deepavali, but i am going to work!!! sianz... my 1 week break from work is over liao... and now just looking foward to the year to end.

Studying

This week i am on leave... wahaha... but i am studying for my exam on Thursday. Sianz...

As mentioned i am taking my CPA exam. So tough... i need to digest 1000+ pages in 5 days... that is the huge task i have left myself with, but luckily it is open book. But also quite unlucky part is that it is open book also, because it just sounds too easy. WAHAHA!

Anyway since hari raya, i have been down with food poisoning and diarhoea, never in my life i have been sick for so long. Faintzz... Took me around 2 weeks to recover from it. Haiz... maybe old liao, immune system really not good. LOL...

Also recently i have been to this place called TIMBRE with a close friend, i dont know we are still that close or not or we should be even be called friends. Dont know la... but anyway the place was really cool! Nice band and food, apart from the fact that it was kind of crowded and it was nice. Recommended! I went there on a Saturday and also last Friday. Thought it was just nice and relaxing.

Oh ya and i am going for my practical driving soon. Almost finish lesson liao... wahaha... Dont know will pass anot... i not really good at it anyway... haha...

hao la... go study liao!

Weekend Blues

Haven really been doing much lately, just realised that i need a new job badly... very tired of the current liao... pulling myself to work... no more challenge... but market now so bad. The economic climate is so bad, probably keeping my job seem like a more important thing.

Bearing that in mind, i realise i have tons of bills to pay.. feeling poor, u earn more and u spend more... that is quite a reality i guess... nothing really to update... Just that i need a new job a new challenge !!!

Birthday Bash

Photos from Thomas Birthday bash @ MOS on 13 September 2008...The Birthday Toast for Mr Heng
No! We are not gay, Perfect straights here !
Told you i am striaght, Haha. Me with Lorraine. A lot guys were so checking her out loh. Haha.
Me with my student Jia Jie.
The very hot Lorraine sharing the drink with us. 3 is a Crowd man ! haha
4 over a jug now!
Not enough mah. How about 5 over a jug. So crowded ! Haha

The Aftermath, all high and cannot move outside MOS. Look at thomas, so out loh.
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Super Long Over-due Photos for MY Bdae Bash

Anyway that happen on 17 MAy 2008 @ Zouk, finally got the photos from Dalphane's facebook. Haha... But better late than never. Photos are like bits of memories, just hope sometimes Time will not move.

ME with my Xiao Mei Mei Dalphane, but now she in US liao. So far far away liao.
ME and thomas, who was the organiser for the bash. Thanks Tom!
Threesome. Wahaha.
Candid Shot, this was meant to be act cute pose of 1, 2 5 but turn out pretty bad. Everyone waiting for the other one to do.
This is so candid from Terence, ganna play
Ladies in black
Me with all the ladies ! WooHoo. Blessed...

Anyway much appreciated for everyone that came down to party some 4 months back and for LM, Fyeap, and Ktang for making the extra effort to come down as they dont club one. Although i never send email to u all. But in my heart i really thanks u all, even though after so long, and u might not read my blog. Haha.

Graduation Photo

As mentioned on my last post. Pictures from my graduation ceremony!

The Congrats!!!
Me!!!
The Gang!!! Times files
3 Musketeers
Me and ShiJie
First Uni friend i meet in SIM. Wahaha. Somemore we meet in toliet. Creepy
Me and my mum and sis

I am going mad

I am going mad i think... going mad with the way i am spending, spending like no tml.

So unhealthy but yet i cannot be too bothered about it at all. I am now totally an agnes B siao liao...

i have added An Agnes B spec, belt and a card holder on to my existing Agnes B collection of a bag and watch.



Anyway i realise that i am really really poor in relationship. I dont have a life, dont have money dont have friends and i am the poorest of them all. MAybe it is just not about the money ba.

Those who have watch money not enough 2 will get what i mean.


Sometimes the simple things in life are just the most happy things to have.

Anyway my graduation finally has taken place. Finally... Nearly 10 months after i cleared my final exam papers, i finally get my cert and go the ceremony. It took place last thursdays 28/08/2008. Conincidently, it happens to be one classmate 28th Birthday as well.

So after the graduation we went to Central MAll to have a quick celebration and dinner. And really times files... so old liao... wahhaa... all finding our feet in our "Career" Hahaa... will post some photos soon. Going for badminton now.

It is over

The past few weeks have been quite bz accumulating to the fact that i have not posted anything since 1 months ago.

OVer the last few weeks i realise how lonely a person i am, apart from having my gf, i dont really have alot of friends that i hang out with all the time. I was reading a blog of my friend and she seem to think so as well.

And today i lost my gf, we broke up, strangly enough and it stuck me pretty hard in the head. But why? I am not that bad of a bf and i? it is strange but yet i feel it is all bcos of me that this happens from start to finish. i feel very very sad... just dun feel like talking much and now i dun feel like typing much... just really sad.

Macau/Hong Kong (Part 3)

As mentioned in previous previous post. Pics from atop Macau museum


That is her.


That me!


And this is us. Wahaha

I am so lazy to actually put in more photos for my trip, so this will be the last post for my trip... wahhaa

Photos from Hongkong


Po Lin Big Buddha


Peak Tram

Scenary from the peak

Welcome to DisneyLand Hong Kong

DisneyLand was fun.


Grand Finale

I actually went to the peak twice, as during the 1st time i actually i did not visit the Madame Tussauds Wax Musuem. So up the peak i go the 2nd time.


Me with the Beatles

Boxing Girl Girl


Open Top Bus


Star Ferry but i never get to sit in it.. Humph...


Beautiful seaview from forget where liao...


Goodbye to Macau/Hong Kong trip

Be good or Be good at it

hi all,

today feeling pretty down and disappointed. Ytd i realise i was not going to be promoted this year and today i realise my colleague was given the chance of being promoted.

How irony... and the main difference between me and her... she belong to " be good " catergory and because of that she got the support of my more senior colleague... and well, i guess i belong to the "be good at it" catergory which obviously lacks the popularity.

I was just being too naive i guess... it is not all about being good at what you do... it just about be good... that is all that matters... very sad to say this but when u are working people would only appreciate obedient staff... So sad to say...

My MAcau/Hong Kong (Part 2)

DAy 2 of MAcau started around 10am or so, there was still a slight drizzle so we bought a umbrella for HKD12 and also i forget to mention, 3 days before my Hong Kong , i actually sprain my ankle in soccer and so i was walking quite gingerly... haha...

Anyway we decided to cross the macau border in china, a place called Zhu Hai,which like a Singapore-Johore distance thingy. We ask on the bus to take and my gf noted them down but in the end we took the wrong bus, which was meant to go the st paul cathedral and not Zhu hai, when we realise our mistake we were 30 min into the ride, luckily , it bought us to quite near zhu hai and we change a bus and reach at the terminal

Near the immigration Center to Zhu Hai



We stay at Zhu hai for around 2 hours to 3 hours, had a terrible lunch before we headed back to macau as it was kind dangerous in Zhu Hai.

So when we were back to MAcau, we went to the St Paul CAthedral which was one the major place i wanted to go in MAcau, i think it is quite cool la...

Here it is, Beautiful St PauL


Girl Girl with St PauL


Beautiful DAy in Macau


After St PauL, being very cultural people MAcau De Musuem. Wahaha


Girl in front the Musuem sign


Me with one of the ornanment


Vintage European style house. Self taken shot. Wahaha


This is really not easy to carry... wahaha... another one of our self taken shot.

I personally quite like the musuem, spend a bit of time in it and we got to go up atop the museum and have a good view of the area. Will post some up tml to wrap up my 2 days in Macau...

To be continued....